Funny

Funny how I always want to start over yet I'm kinda afraid of doing so.

Long time ago, when I just graduated from junior high school, I chose to go quite far just to continue my study at senior high school. I chose to take a risk at new environment and new society. I chose to even live by myself at my aunty's, only be able to meet my parents and lil brother on weekends.

All i did to just start a something new.

But well, high school would still suck for a-pretty-ordinary-kid like me. A girl who dressed quite unfashionable. A girl who spoke english not as good as her new friends.

I remember I was afraid to tell people what I'd been doing (in terms of writing-activity mostly). I remember I was afraid of people's opinions, and it has lasted until now, unfortunately.

Yet, things changed and I started to love high school (though still not entirely). Even so I miss it right now, I still have a desire to start over again.

And well, college now seems to be a choice. Though half of my heart is pretty afraid of what will I face. I'm afraid of what environment that will surround me. And most importantly, I'm afraid of growing up and behaving more serious as well as responsible.

Another half of my heart is instead pretty excited for the new experience ahead. New adventures and opportunities. New faces and personalities.

See? Again, it's half excited for a new start, half scared for the same thing.

It's funny, yet it's me.