The Pressure

I actually pass all the exams, thanks God! :')

But unfortunately the pressure comes back from the other side.

Last Skype session my father talked about master degree, and scholarship, and where to go, and you know, all about university decision all over again. I actually knew what I want, but now I'm starting to doubt about it again. Especially when looking back at myself, I think I really haven't reached much achievement that I can actually be proud of. I haven't had much experience in other activities. So how can I get scholarship or how can I pay for master by myself? While to survive here itself, is for me still another battle.

Of course I told my father that I still have long time to decide. But then he said to me, 'no, 4 years is not that long'.

Argh, come on! I don't want to be a coward like I was when deciding to go to Germany. This time I have to choose by myself. And hopefully (or I would like to say, it's a must) I would be able to pay for it by myself, Amen. As if not, maybe this Germany-case will be happened all over again...

1st February

It's been finally 2 years. Honey, look how far we've come now. I really don't have much words to say to you. And I don't wanna make this post becoming overloaded with cheesiness. But I love you, and I was enchanted to meet you. And here's one of your random moments that definitely able to always cheer me up :)