Ash Wednesday

Well, I'm not the type who actually really listens to what the Priest says during homily. But since I live here, I go to Church by myself and somehow I always look for some enlightenment, or comfort, or what God actually tells me to do, by listening to homily. However this post is not meant to be some religious post. This post is just me sharing about what the Priest says; when you're fasting, don't let people know you're fasting. don't show it off, don't wear the face that begs for pity.

Yeah I couldn't really understand the whole homily but the first sentence has already kicked/hit/punched me right here. These days I was to be honest complaining and fishing for pity because I think I really work hard here but nobody cares or supports or whatever. Sounds so selfish, eh? I bet people also feel the same when they have to work hard but on the other hand they think it isn't worth something.

So the saying about when you're fasting, don't let people know you're fasting here tells me the same way about when you're working hard and suffering, just don't beg for people praise and pity. Do it because you want to do it, and it's your duty.
Nowadays social media makes it worse actually. I mean, seeing your friends having fun while you have to work hard and they seem don't care, just makes you want to complain and show it off too (that you're actually suffering). So this lent, I want to make resolution where I will open social media less frequently (I don't think I can, but just give it try) as well as stop comparing my life to others. And finally, I think this picture really tells everything. It's been my desktop wallpaper for months till I forget the actual meaning of the sentence.

And by the way, posting this right here seems a bit contradictory. Though I think my friends don't know my blog so I don't actually show it off to them, and besides, who really reads this now? I just want to share. And wishing you a happy Ash Wednesday :)