Hello Again

It's been a long time since I wrote here. And if you ask, no, I'm still often in homesick phase. Yes, I know I've been going to different Christmas market every weekend with friends (photos come up later), but still, I've been overthinking over and over again.

Funny how when I went on Skype with boyfriend or family or besties, I would cry yet smile. I wouldn't talk much, because no words from me really needed to make me feel better. I miss everyone. And the hardest part, I miss the memories which would be impossible to be repeated again, right?

And then they would keep saying, fighting! You will face the harder one after this. This is just the beginning. Don't give up. And I would smile and wiped my tears and walked with my chin up again. And in the end of the week I would miss them again and yeah, I'm so weak.

I look at the seniors and how they can enjoy their lives here now. It's so motivating, thank you :). I just hope I can really survive.

If you ask me, am I still confused with major? Yes, and no. No options left, I just need to go through this.

And they say this is the wheel of life. I might feel sad, but I couldn't always be this sad. I should survive. I should not give up.

Fighting for all who might just get out from their comfort zone now and try to survive there.