Things About Courage

So like, I'm stuck here. And I really feel that I have made wrong decision.

You know that since the first, this is not the first major I would like (or passionately) to take. You know that I don't know. You know that I always go with the flow. And I think I would be able to take it easy. Just like what I did in junior high school or first days in senior high school.

But I'm wrong.

And I did talk to my parents. Yet, it's still undecided. Yet, I'm still not able to arrange the words to say.

What do you guys think I need to do?

I just don't want to disappoint them and my big family and the others.

But then I got so many example of case where people keep going with things they don't like and they end up with failing or taking again the course they want or even regretting.

And yeah, I need to be honest. I need to start having courage just like what my boyfriend said. Stop going with the flow. Go follow your heart and forget what the others said, just like what my bestfriend said.

Then the question is which major should I take? Which path should I take?

No one could answer it but me. But then it's hard to rephrase what I think to my parents.

So just help me to write a letter to mom and dad. Tell them that this might be better.

I think gap year won't matter, I could do so many things on gap year. Yet, yeah, I'm pretty sure they would not believe it..

Help me Lord.

And for you guys, which one you would rather take? Disappointing and embarassing yourself? Or keep following what your true passion and dreams are?