About My Mother

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I was about to post this on last mother's day, which was last last month, I guess? I don't know. I was about to write on Instagram along with posting her photo, but then I realise that it has no point since my mom doesn't have Instagram. Anyway, I'm not a girl who is comfortable enough to show my affection. That includes showing my affection to my parents. I don't know what is wrong with me (or maybe it's not something wrong), as I actually grew up in a loving family. And anyway, I think I should just stop rambling because I start forgetting what I was about to say.

So, I forget most of what my mom has said to me. Yes, of course, don't take it personally. Nobody really remembers every word that someone has said to him/her, right? But I somehow always remember that my mom once said to me, that I should not want to be like her. You know what? That's crazy. My mom has been my role model. But then she told me that I should want to be a better person. Don't be 'just like her'. 

I always see my mom as a superwoman. She handles everything. She manages to have her own business, while still drives me and my brother to school, cooks (most of the time), sews my ripped skirt, helps with our homeworks, and manages her social life (that includes being a choir member and being active at church). The most important thing is that I still feel loved. Of course, I just realised this when I've left home and being far away from her. 

Additionally, I also follow some bloggers who happen to be young moms. And I start to realise that it's hella crazy to balance everything like that. Mother always wants the best for her children. But then, we tend to close our eyes and we tend to get mad when our moms do mistakes or silly things. We forget that moms --as well as dads-- are just humans. We forget that they actually have no idea at first how to raise a child, especially if you are the firstborn like me. Hence, I would like to say that my mother already sets a perfect example for me. Why should not she be confident enough about it?

I still want to use my mom as my role model. I still want to be a superwoman one day. I want to balance everything and most importantly, I want to make my family feel loved. It's awesome. My mom is awesome even though she is not a CEO in a large multinational company, nor a doctor in a big hospital, nor a famous singer. And if one day she happens to read this, hello Mom, you should have known that I love you.