Always In Journey

We are never at the destination, we are always in the journey.

So today, in university, I got this kind-of fortune cookies. They said that it isn't similar to fortune cookie. But, yeah, I think it is. I got the christmas cookie, some sort of grape juice, and got to pick a random memo with a quote inside it. 

Anyway, funny is how the quote inside seems like answering my question this morning. When I was preparing to go to school, I was thinking by myself how last last year when I was still in high school, I said to myself, 'I would be free once I've finished high school. I would be able to use all the time to write a novel'. Yes, I was free. But no, I didn't work on my novel. 

And then in the first year of college, which actually still was not so hard considering that it's still in English, I told myself, 'Once summer's come, I would be able to finish a novel'. But again, no. I didn't finish it. Well, yeah, a draft. A so rough draft that can't be really considered as finished. 

And now I told myself again, 'Once I graduate from university, I will have free time, and time to write a novel'. Are you sure? 

It seems like I'm so oriented with finishing my education and then write. My goal is to finish this hardwork-struggling-phase in university as soon as possible and then be free. But, no. I forget how I will need to start looking for a job. And blah, blah, blah (and be an adult of course). 

Hence, when I read the quote, I realised, we will always be in a journey. 

It's nonsense to focus on the goal. I mean, yeah, I have to make goals for myself so I will not end up sleeping the whole day because I have nothing to strive for (like what I did every holiday actually...). But I should not focus on what I will do once this struggling over. Because there will be another struggling phase waiting for me. I should focus on now, managing my time wisely for all the tasks and dreams. Easier said than done, I know.

Story About December

Hey it's December anyway. Last chance to finish all resolutions you made in last January. The chance to start thinking whether to made the new resolutions or just stay with same, still unchecked resolutions from this year for next year.

Hey it's December anyway, every December you become so nostalgic. You always think that the last December is better.

December is the time where you start forgetting all school stuffs. To be in the holiday mood. To go to shopping mall with Christmas decorations everywhere.

But now for me it's kind of different. I'm torn in between slacking off or just start studying for finals. I mean, in school, I should have learned that it's okay for slacking off a bit because people do it, and the materials are not as much as in college. Ironically now in college I'm getting much lazier to study. I sometimes find time is better spent to do my personal project. I've always been doing so many personal projects in every December without thinking about school. Which sometimes in the end, the project means nothing because it's just for me.

December 2010 is still the best for me. It's where I feel alive, doing things not related to school. But I was feeling alive. And if I do it now, in this-supposed-to-be-holiday-for me, I keep wondering, will I pass the exams later? I haven't even had any idea what I did learn in every class.

Though, hey, it's December anyway. I have to admit I love going out in coat and scarf and beanie because of the weather. I love the romantic feeling when seeing christmas light everywhere.

And, hey, it's December anyway. The time you miss the home the most. The time you wish santa would come to give you a flight ticket back to home.

Don't Date A Girl Who Reads

Someone said "date a girl who reads. date a girl who spends her money on books instead of clothes/ who has problems with closet space because she has too many books."

But, no. Don't date a girl who reads. 

Because a girl who reads, her mind is not always there -- on you.

Because a girl who reads might find happiness other than by depending on you.

Because a girl who reads might over romanticize things and expect too much.

A girl who reads might love silence so much. Might not always want to go out, to accompany you on a party, or even to city center for a whole day. A girl who reads might bore you. Might often be found on her own imagination. On her own living world. 

But once you accept these all, you might find that this girl, will fall for you over anything. Because a girl who reads has always face a not -so-sweet judgement from others. And once she finds the one that can accept her - for who she really is - it becomes a rare thing. 

Because a girl who reads, is just basically the same with a girl who draws, shops, dances, or walks at catwalk. The same with boy who sings, plays game, races in racing car.

We don't do that because we want to be seen as a smart one. Not that being smart is identified by reading anyway. Just like not that being friendly is identified by being talkative. 

So date a girl who you love. Who you can accept for whoever she is.

And who can accept you for whoever you are.

P.S. because we're honestly already tired with your judgement.