Always In Journey

We are never at the destination, we are always in the journey.

So today, in university, I got this kind-of fortune cookies. They said that it isn't similar to fortune cookie. But, yeah, I think it is. I got the christmas cookie, some sort of grape juice, and got to pick a random memo with a quote inside it. 

Anyway, funny is how the quote inside seems like answering my question this morning. When I was preparing to go to school, I was thinking by myself how last last year when I was still in high school, I said to myself, 'I would be free once I've finished high school. I would be able to use all the time to write a novel'. Yes, I was free. But no, I didn't work on my novel. 

And then in the first year of college, which actually still was not so hard considering that it's still in English, I told myself, 'Once summer's come, I would be able to finish a novel'. But again, no. I didn't finish it. Well, yeah, a draft. A so rough draft that can't be really considered as finished. 

And now I told myself again, 'Once I graduate from university, I will have free time, and time to write a novel'. Are you sure? 

It seems like I'm so oriented with finishing my education and then write. My goal is to finish this hardwork-struggling-phase in university as soon as possible and then be free. But, no. I forget how I will need to start looking for a job. And blah, blah, blah (and be an adult of course). 

Hence, when I read the quote, I realised, we will always be in a journey. 

It's nonsense to focus on the goal. I mean, yeah, I have to make goals for myself so I will not end up sleeping the whole day because I have nothing to strive for (like what I did every holiday actually...). But I should not focus on what I will do once this struggling over. Because there will be another struggling phase waiting for me. I should focus on now, managing my time wisely for all the tasks and dreams. Easier said than done, I know.

Story About December

Hey it's December anyway. Last chance to finish all resolutions you made in last January. The chance to start thinking whether to made the new resolutions or just stay with same, still unchecked resolutions from this year for next year.

Hey it's December anyway, every December you become so nostalgic. You always think that the last December is better.

December is the time where you start forgetting all school stuffs. To be in the holiday mood. To go to shopping mall with Christmas decorations everywhere.

But now for me it's kind of different. I'm torn in between slacking off or just start studying for finals. I mean, in school, I should have learned that it's okay for slacking off a bit because people do it, and the materials are not as much as in college. Ironically now in college I'm getting much lazier to study. I sometimes find time is better spent to do my personal project. I've always been doing so many personal projects in every December without thinking about school. Which sometimes in the end, the project means nothing because it's just for me.

December 2010 is still the best for me. It's where I feel alive, doing things not related to school. But I was feeling alive. And if I do it now, in this-supposed-to-be-holiday-for me, I keep wondering, will I pass the exams later? I haven't even had any idea what I did learn in every class.

Though, hey, it's December anyway. I have to admit I love going out in coat and scarf and beanie because of the weather. I love the romantic feeling when seeing christmas light everywhere.

And, hey, it's December anyway. The time you miss the home the most. The time you wish santa would come to give you a flight ticket back to home.

Don't Date A Girl Who Reads

Someone said "date a girl who reads. date a girl who spends her money on books instead of clothes/ who has problems with closet space because she has too many books."

But, no. Don't date a girl who reads. 

Because a girl who reads, her mind is not always there -- on you.

Because a girl who reads might find happiness other than by depending on you.

Because a girl who reads might over romanticize things and expect too much.

A girl who reads might love silence so much. Might not always want to go out, to accompany you on a party, or even to city center for a whole day. A girl who reads might bore you. Might often be found on her own imagination. On her own living world. 

But once you accept these all, you might find that this girl, will fall for you over anything. Because a girl who reads has always face a not -so-sweet judgement from others. And once she finds the one that can accept her - for who she really is - it becomes a rare thing. 

Because a girl who reads, is just basically the same with a girl who draws, shops, dances, or walks at catwalk. The same with boy who sings, plays game, races in racing car.

We don't do that because we want to be seen as a smart one. Not that being smart is identified by reading anyway. Just like not that being friendly is identified by being talkative. 

So date a girl who you love. Who you can accept for whoever she is.

And who can accept you for whoever you are.

P.S. because we're honestly already tired with your judgement. 

One Year In Germany

Today I woke up with strange feeling as I saw that the calendar marks 17th October. Yup, it's exactly one year after my arrival in Germany. University is soooooooooooo hard and makes me so busy. Like engineering itself is already sooooooooo hard, and I have to learn it in German. And my German level is not even sufficient enough, since they said the first year would be in English first, but then they changed the program. Seriously. I could curse and swear here.

As I told you, every time I ranted, people would say just go with it. Funny thing is that I realized how in this one year, I've written more than two or three drafts for novel, I guess. But there is not even one which is really finished. So now I'm working on it again. I still need to balance with university's stuffs, though. I'm still doubting my choice being here. But not as hardcore as one year ago (if you are curious with how I ranted last year, just check my blogpost). See ya!

P.S. to celebrate it. I change my blog layout again today. 

Singapore (Part 2)

so here's the last night. well spent at marina bay sands. didn't plan to watch the wonderfall (the waterfall with fantastic sounds and lighting) but i honestly have wished that i could watch it one day. so yeah, another in my to-do-list, checked :D

Kudos to my friend for capturing these beautiful sky and lighting view, while I'm busy playing with her so focus camera (I don't know what that lens is called).

This is the Wonderfall! 

Finally, I was eating 'jajanan' at Singapore. Initially I ordered seafood noodle soup. But then, I couldn't finish it and therefore switched my food with my friend's 'roti jon'. It's reallyyy delicious. Singapore has the best food (even though,still after Indonesia, I guess). 

Singapore (Part 1)

This is the last highlight of my summer trip. 4 days weekend with bestfriends in Singapore! You can guess it's full of sharing, laughing and gossiping. Yup! Plus walking around till I couldn't feel my feet anymore. Here, enjoy the photos. :)

Were up till 5 in the morning for our chit chat. 

Sushi time!

Their university.

F1, F1 everywhere (I wish someday I can watch it live).

Dinner in marrocon restaurant. I forgot where it was, but I guess it's near the famous Haji Lane. 

Just us, hanging around with cute mannequin or statue or whatever it is called.

So we "officially" went to universal studio. 

Two of my heavens!

Next photos will be on next post. 

Indonesia: 'Mudik' To Jogja

'Mudik' is a term for going back to the hometown. And yeah, going back to Jogja is a must when I finally have chance to go home -- Indonesia. Here are some photojournal from the trip. I forgot to bring my camera so all taken by phone camera.

1) I unbelievably miss J.co, actually. 

2) I was looking for souvenir for the German lady who owns the house where I live now.

3) Two of my happiness: 'Martabak Telor' which became too salty for me. And book sale. I always like that.

4) Jogja 'becak' ride.

5) The famous 'Beringin', which we have to pass between them with eyes being closed. I finally succeeded after the third trial, I guess. But I do remember someone shouted "dream is to be chased by running, not just walking" or something like that (in Indonesian of course).

Maturnuwun, Jogja!

I Thought

When my friends told me they have fear with people's opinion, I was just being silent. I thought I was getting better now battling against it. I thought I was okay enough now and strong enough. Have I told you how my first two years in every new school were always full of fear? No? It's just like I looked so ignorant, yet I was overthinking about everything. I pretty much surrendered everything to my friend. I thought I was being strong now. I could be happy and content. But why this life keeps forcing me to change and to do something, while on the other side, it forces me to be grateful with what I have? I can be happy with what I have. You guys should too. 

Spring-Summer

So this is post I was about to post since long time ago. For me the transition between spring to summer is the one that I couldn't really feel it. It's almost the same. and now it's already changed again into autumn. 

I find it is interesting to see season changes. Am I weird? 

But anyway,we went to see cherry blossoms on spring. It was so beautiful. And we went to Badesee (a lake that has sand, because there's no beaches here). And in the morning, it was raining hard but then the sun was shining...very very brightly as well as hot. Here are some of the photos I just think quite worth to share.

 Cherry blossom in Bonn.

 Momma, I want to go to Japan.

 It was also a 'Maibaum' celebration. On the first of May, when a boy put this decorated tree in front of girl-that-he-likes' window.

'The Beach'

Is it even weirder if I say I love autumn more?

Pluviophile

source: tumblr.com

So I just got back to Germany. A month of holiday feels so short. And now it's time to go back to reality. 

The weather nowadays is so cold and it's always raining. At least it's one of good things that I can feel now. 

See you later with the posts about holiday, maybe. I just wanna sleep all day under the blanket, and sip a cup of coffee or hot chocolate. But I can't. Life's hard. Fighting!

Summer In Indonesia

Hey, it's been two weeks I'm in Indonesia. Time flies, huh? Two busy weeks, I have to say. Today I just landed from Jogja to visit my grandparents. And yeah, I'm sorry I forgot to bring a camera, so no pictures can be uploaded (except maybe if I decide to upload from my phone camera). Anyway, here, being at home, it ironically reminds me that I'm nothing. I've done nothing. Yet, I'm getting lazier than when I was in Germany. I don't know. I cancel my application for internship. You know it's hard. I can't drive. I don't even have desire to drive, looking at how shitty traffic in Jakarta. And I can't go anywhere without being dependent to my parents. It's like somehow I'm being prisoned by my own stupidity, yet I still have a will to be better (seriously). Anyway, that's it. Maybe i will post some from life in Germany last months, but i don't know for now. Maybe I will read and write again? For your information, I've read more than 10 books in one week here. The only achievement I could be proud of now. Ha!

Moving (On)

Hello! I've done with exams. I continously received a good news after that so-so exams. And now I start being busy, packing for moving to a new house. It's such indescribable feeling. I mean, come on, I still remember every single moment when I first came to Germany. And suddenly, it's been around 10 months. Time to move to new house. Time to go to real university (not college freshman anymore). Time to move on. I'll be back to Indonesia in next (next) week. I can't wait. Meanwhile it's just 'wow' for me that I've survived. Remember all 'galau' mellow posts on first months I was here? I can't ever forget. Anyway, here's then the photos for comparison, before and after.

Post exam's madness.

 My getting-messier-'desk'

 How I need to start rolling my winter jacket, again. 

 My proud collection of Pringles that I need to throw it away.

 Oh, bye bye Physics and Math book!

 I remember at first I only have survival food from this dorm, and now, it's so called minimarket (with half of it already expired actually). Oh, and look at my coffee collection! I still collect silly things here for no reason. For example...

Who still have the boarding pass for the first time coming to Germany? Aye,aye, Captain.

 That's the box for all of us to throw things. And that's the dead plant that I need throw away also.

See how my stuffs have been breeding by themselves. This is just the half of it. And see, I've had new boxes for me and my collecting memories! (And pardon for the sandals, I didn't notice it at first).

So, yeah, wish me luck for some bureaucracy stuffs as well as moving out-in madness! And finally I can come back to Indonesia next (next) week. (And well come back again to Germany one month after). See ya!