Hop Hop

Actually I'm kind of regretting the way I was being so shitty on the first month living here. I should be grateful because it's actually such a good opportunity. And here I post some of the cities I've been travelling these weeks since I'm having free ticket to go around Nordrhein-Westfalen for free, yippie. I would still hop to another cities on every weekend (I hope) and would remind myself to bring camera if only it's not so heavy...

Oh, I let myself fail on Nanowrimo but as the consequence I'm working on another project again and again.

And anyway, Christmas is coming soon! I wish this would be another best Christmas in year! :)

Aachen last week.

Jülich Weihnachtsmarkt.

Bonn, Pixar 25 years of animation exhibition. Too bad taking pictures inside is prohibited.

Bonn, Weihnachtsmarkt.

A Lil Final or Conclusion

You guys might forgot that months ago I actually made a project named who I want to be project, or wiwtb project. I didn't really finish it. I didn't really do much about it. And instead, I was so messed up thinking about is my decision to be here right or wrong.

So here, I'm just trying to make that project done by writing the possibility of the resolution. Because it's just so impractical for me to leave everything here and start a new thing for a sake that this is not my passion. Passion can be in everywhere I guess. I mean, I still write here and even I'm now able to take so many photos of good events around here.

Three things I need to do then (again, this might not be so fixed, but as what my boyfriend said to me, I should stop being so much go-with-the-flow):

1) Planning about what to do after graduating from applied chemistry major. What it will take to relate it to my passion in writing or collecting journal.

2) Enjoying everything here. Walking around, taking photos, new experiences.

3) Striving for the best (especially in physics).

Then as a final, I honestly hate to tell everyone what my planning is. So yeah, I just keep it secret but I do make it, okay. Anyway, I heard once that people who tell everyone their resolution or planning actually do not make it done. But I didn't mean that you can't tell your resolution or planning. You still should! Because by then, you have a kind of responsibility to make it done. Just like my Nanowrimo project which is sadly stuck in 3000 words while it should be 25000 by now...

Overall, stop being too much go with the flow especially about your future, or else it could make things harder...

Köln: 11.11. 11.11, Merrier Than Halloween

Well, after a long time posting only about mellow, such-a-not-a-cheerful stuffs, this time I'm gonna post some photos taken from last week carnival in Köln. It was the first time for me to go to such a carnival. People there were wearing costume, so creative and funny starting from cartoon character, animals, stuffs like pirate and film figure till even FBI ghostbuster and so forth. Yeah, it was much merrier than Halloween to be honest. They are dancing while drinking beer. Me also tried to drink that beer, but well, I don't think I really like it. So here are the photos.

The man who cleaned the broken glasses that being scattered almost everywhere...

How train station was full of people with costume.

The event took place almost all over Köln, with the Dom as the main center. Well, such a pity I didn't take the photo of the whole-magical-Dom (without my face in front of it). But yeah, this was such a new fun experience for me. Exactly on 11.11 11.11. 

Things About Courage

So like, I'm stuck here. And I really feel that I have made wrong decision.

You know that since the first, this is not the first major I would like (or passionately) to take. You know that I don't know. You know that I always go with the flow. And I think I would be able to take it easy. Just like what I did in junior high school or first days in senior high school.

But I'm wrong.

And I did talk to my parents. Yet, it's still undecided. Yet, I'm still not able to arrange the words to say.

What do you guys think I need to do?

I just don't want to disappoint them and my big family and the others.

But then I got so many example of case where people keep going with things they don't like and they end up with failing or taking again the course they want or even regretting.

And yeah, I need to be honest. I need to start having courage just like what my boyfriend said. Stop going with the flow. Go follow your heart and forget what the others said, just like what my bestfriend said.

Then the question is which major should I take? Which path should I take?

No one could answer it but me. But then it's hard to rephrase what I think to my parents.

So just help me to write a letter to mom and dad. Tell them that this might be better.

I think gap year won't matter, I could do so many things on gap year. Yet, yeah, I'm pretty sure they would not believe it..

Help me Lord.

And for you guys, which one you would rather take? Disappointing and embarassing yourself? Or keep following what your true passion and dreams are?

Der Regenbogen

Um, I'm so sorry for lack of posts. I've been really busy with lessons and life here. I've been so tired and missing home so much. But then everytime I told mom or dad about it, they would just reply with "you will get used to it" or "if it is easy then you won't become a better person". So motivating, yeah, I know. But still, I'm feeling so tired until people who met me here always said 'you look so tired' or 'why you always sleepy', yeah...

Anyway there's a rainbow literally in Linnich last Sunday. So maybe for this post I would just share it with you guys and hoping there will be more rainbows figuratively on life here (so cheesy :p)

And yeah, IB actually didn't do much as preparation for uni since people here are so smart. But at least IB taught me to be numb just like what my bestfriend told me.

P.S. I am still working for Nanowrimo. I have deleted two 'so-called-unfinished-novels' and I should struggle for this one. Viel Glück for me! And it's in Indonesian by the way, but if I'm finally done with it I might share it here for you guys :)

Nanowrimo And Books

Suddenly I really miss the time when people say I was being unemployed. But it's actually the time I was more productive than now or than when i was in high school. I miss going to bookstore from mall to mall, Indonesian or imported doesn't even matter. I miss making a cup of coffee every morning and let my thoughts be written abstractly on laptop or pieces of paper. I miss browsing till late night and then reading novels till I forgot everything (mostly time, and my boyfriend, sorry). I miss those things. I miss my simple sweet date with him and novels. I miss my family too, of course.

Why am I stuck here? I have never had a courage to be writer. But well, this time I try to join Nanowrimo (nanowrimo.org). Hopefully this will give me encouragement to finish at least one novel.